August 21, 2010
  lonely you hear in the singing / gentle / harsh manner … …
  lonely you hear in the singing / softly / frantic … …
  more profound grief … …
  song is so cruel / people cry rivers of tears
  … …
  Asan \ CD Machine Can flash continuously flashing a red light … …
  I Qin.
  I sat on the sofa, eyes looked sluggish in the long dark night, do not see any light, disheveled hair covered with face, hand cigarette butts on the faint light, like the death of people can only see faint light as weak enough to breathtaking.
  Well, I would like to sleep, but also constantly said to myself, to sleep, you really ought to sleep. However , I really can not sleep, coach handbags, I was really unable to sleep. I looked bleak and empty that night, no sign of life look. Then continue to sigh, however, emit gases have been swallowed up by night, can not even see the mixing point.
  CD machine flash constantly flashing, but people do not see a dim hope, only to see the empty space to life. Based on this the then despair.
  are not human life is so simple:
  this from time to time the other end first.
  starting point is to start from crying, but crying at that time, is heartless creature, cry, cry clean and pure.
  then there is the happy heart are lung, the same as clean and pure.
< br />   However, the more grown up more find reality in the laughter became more and more false. Start learning to make themselves feel sick with a smile to hide his sadness.
  last left is will totally upset and indignant.
  you … … Why?
  no reason to leave me.
  I took recently bought two days of sleeping pills, went to the window, watching the old canopy under the vast expanse of black, and this city will always be in bloom hope – dim lighting.
  I ate, coach handbags, then went to sofa, sat down, lie down.
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  next day, get up, the pale light tingling sensation with sore eyes. I going to find a suitable job, to restore the share of lost work, more importantly, work through the chaos to paralyze themselves.
  he is gone, but I still want to live.
  I can not because he lost a life.
  I took a crowded bus, a cold look at a person, look in this city constantly busy with the crowd, watched constantly by his side constantly flies the vast expanse of fragrant camphor tree, then it disappeared behind an ever abandoned. As those who have been left the youth behind.
  bicycle boy .
  camphor tree story.
  1 a slim figure.
  1 Zhang Qingliang and beautiful face.

  – sorry for you, do you?
  – they e gone.
  I suddenly discovered that the car has left me alone, but I still forget where to go, perhaps simply do not know where to go up.
  of the car and walk in a strange, well it is hardly the streets. To commercial buildings, took out newspaper share of recruitment, once again looked at. The newspaper then put into a purse, walked into the building.
  it is an electronics company.
  I studied e-commerce, so that line on my professional work, they came to the applicants. Because of the need of survival, so must work.
  My boyfriend has left, all only on their own. But I just graduated, too many things that are not well known. A lot of experience with only seen in books, the lack of personal experience. So now I face the headache of weak and blind obedience.
< br />   into the building. Interview.
  but did not pass the interview, I had moodily out of the building.
  me under the scorching sun to a camphor tree, sitting on a stone bench. Eyes looking away, handbags on sale, looking forward to a bleak hope.
  But in the end she did not see any hope, just come and go before us, a steady stream of people and vehicles. They are in my line of sight continuously reduced, then the infinite stretch. From one pole to another sight unseen the end. The end result is to see them is: where to go .
  lost I have to look very short life. But I want to live, I want to live, I do not want their lives so easily be overwhelmed.
  I got up, continued to shuttle in the busy city, continue to struggle for life. At least for me is not the kind of life will totally disappointed, I thought, very often, our life is not for myself, but for some people, some of the important people in life, although those are not the most important person, but enough to make their lives more important than to the rich.
  walked, inadvertently saw a pool of stagnant water dead. That pool of stagnant water floating oily ripples in the sunlight, beautiful light issue. However, under the pull off greasy disappointment has already issued a rancid flavor. In my opinion, written in the past heard more than one pool of stagnant water that are not now in this city is so sour and despair.
  me back, back to me that my boyfriend house to pay a month rent. I thought, so I had to work on out of here, leave this hurt my place, complete the left, never to leave.
  can be too much of this social reality, and I could not find work so quickly.
  I was as usual, the first thing is to open the CD, listening to one song after another the first injury. Then turned into the bathroom. Bath.
  cleaned up after sitting on the sofa. Took out a pack of cigarettes. Red. Lit. Smoking. While smoking, while listening to a CD in injuries of the musical artists. Among them, a Asan \ Because I like the singer voice, the kind of little injuries , some hidden bitterness of the musical. In my opinion, the singer who is like me, at least it is about the same person. So like. Yes. Of it. Is really like.
  Finally, I fell asleep lazy. The reason may be due to exhaustion, too tired and too sad. Soon deadlocked over the brain, also comply with all the stability and down.
  had insomnia I was an easy woman, now I can sleep a good sleep, I can sleep a heartless creature, the … …
  next day, I started looking for work. I like this city a wanderer, I also realized that I finally know the cruel reality, but, all in front of or beyond my imagination.
  A week later, I finally found a job. Although that is not what I want. However, in the real society, I can only obey the fate of life to conform to this society wheel right now.
  day, I started my first day of work. It is the second time in my life career. Because I am at school I did some things, some work part-time classes. And I do things quite outstanding performance, it was a company visa. This can cause a large part of the recruitment success is because of this.
  In fact, now I have not a job very seriously. I e become a bit lazy, a bit weak.
  In this case, let me think of my boyfriend.
  then also left the traces of years, or will they once again at a certain moment of life to reproduce.
  perhaps , given the fate of cells is not completely fixed prices, that is only a time of recollection and perception.
  I do is very simple, is to help managers to do some file that sort of thing .
  I have thought, like me, a daughter, and is an orphan under their parents divorced. My outrage over things for parents, sad than a happy family, how would that do as they please ? I can not bear, so when I live with my mother, I became very independent character becomes obtrusive. I began to no longer believe there will be a happy love, began to think there will be no happy family. But when I met him , I was duty-bound to fall in love with him or believe him.
  could a person like me, gucci bags, if someone in my frustration, I suddenly gave me a lot of warmth. I will love him and trust him. I think he is the world a beacon. However, when the beacon went out. I would get mad, chanel bags cheap, get cold.
  Although I am a bit lazy, but I also a bit of economic-minded people, at this point I would not think of self-pride. So to meet with customers, I can act according to circumstances, you can always change expression. But when a return, I will sad, or as usual, listening to a CD, smoking a cigarette, eyes cold and dull.
  morning, my messy hair and dressed to go to work.

  bright bright sunshine could not see any dust. It seems that many of the staff had settled on this.
  I saw a lot of police cars parked, stepped forward. Saw a scene for her sick enough to picture a few weeks. A similar young age and I am lying on the ground, his face bloody. I saw her hand in a bag, swap out a CD, now I often put the CD goes on exactly the same. So, I see, she is a person who told me about.
  my work as usual, I started to work hard. In my view, in addition to the work can be used to numb and exhausted themselves, have no other. Even if everything is still normal operation. However, my life has been a blank to just work. The number of my colleagues and I have no words, only occasionally respond to the smile. Probably because most people around to see the shadow of a human heart. So in the eyes of my colleagues I was a bit frightening.